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I'm on Tumblr
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Forbidden by nature
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The feeling you get when you want to reach out to someone but you can't. There's no way of explaining what you want to say. So instead, you need to control yourself from sobbing too hard, from choking on your own tears and grit your teeth to stop your jaw from trembling, tense your muscles from shaking. And when you manage to hold yourself together, you pace around as if trying to look for something missing. Thinking.
Then you realize what was missing.
That you had to let it go and understand the other person might hate you for letting it go.
Didn't want the other to suffer from uncertainties, buried by worries of the day and future to come. Of what others may see and think.
When you're just too broken inside to fix yourself bit by bit, and hold yourself together... you tell yourself "no more, no more".
People are cruel. Things we are taught and led to believe only broke us.
"I love you, too. I want to feel better. Stay with me here. Put me back together." Is what I wanted to say. But nevermore. The dream is lost and long broken from past beyond repair. And perhaps what was felt was naught but a cruel illusion of love. A Devil's torment of what I cannot have. In your God's eyes, I am but a failed creation you cannot love.
Then you realize what was missing.
That you had to let it go and understand the other person might hate you for letting it go.
Didn't want the other to suffer from uncertainties, buried by worries of the day and future to come. Of what others may see and think.
When you're just too broken inside to fix yourself bit by bit, and hold yourself together... you tell yourself "no more, no more".
People are cruel. Things we are taught and led to believe only broke us.
"I love you, too. I want to feel better. Stay with me here. Put me back together." Is what I wanted to say. But nevermore. The dream is lost and long broken from past beyond repair. And perhaps what was felt was naught but a cruel illusion of love. A Devil's torment of what I cannot have. In your God's eyes, I am but a failed creation you cannot love.
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Has anyone watched the movie 'Her'?
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SPOILER ALERTZ. Maybe.
It's a nice movie and all, and in the context of long distance relationships, I can understand most of it and
But I don't quite understand the ending. Why did all the other OSs leave? 
It's like a forever break up or telling him that she's in a better place, telling him to join her someday or
It's a nice movie and all, and in the context of long distance relationships, I can understand most of it and
But I don't quite understand the ending. Why did all the other OSs leave? It's like a forever break up or telling him that she's in a better place, telling him to join her someday or
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You shall not pass
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Hi, guys. Having my summer vacation nao. So tubblr haz told me that there's something wrong with teh encryption of servers etcetcetc.
I think they're calling this virus/bug/idk "Heartbleed" and it undoes encryption so it reveals important stuff like passwords
But just in case, it would be good to change all your passwords everywhere, FaceBookz, tubblr, twits, all your bankz, emails-- errythang, yo. Better safe than sorry, they sez :v
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Lay low
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Hey, everyone.
People should stop being generous to me 
Sorry I haven't been active since last year and since I've got my ass into crap college. But I'm surprised to see my premium activated again or something? WHO DID THIS?
You know who you are 
People should stop being generous to me I've been away for so long, I don't remember how to use this site anymore and forgot most of the icons I liked to use *an icon whore plz*
But just want to say that, I hope everyone's gone off to a good start of the new year. If you're in college and swamped with crap, 
And to the many people who've watched me just recently, why u watch dis stoopid person 
I miss everyone <3
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